It Starts!

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This weekend I cleaned out the pantry and fridge. Then I went to the store and bought completely organic foods! I was expecting the bill to have a huge increase, but I was pleasantly surprised. I came away spending 5 dollars more than I normally do, so I consider that a plus.

Tomorrow starts all organic meals and, for me, back to the exercise grind. Easter sweets have kicked my butt!

My son, on the other hand, may prove himself to be a vegetarian. He would much rather eat fruits and veggies than meat! Thank goodness for that!

Well, here goes!


Everything Happens For a Reason

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Nearly a year ago, I lost a friend. To be completely honest with myself, it was my fault. It was. At the same time, however, I needed to lose that friend to learn a very valuable lesson.

You see, though losing the friend was my fault, there were so many other little intricacies that lead up to the falling out, that I cannot hold blame for what happened. In fact, hind sight being 20/20, I should have dropped this friend long ago.  I learned the following:

1. Never trust anyone except yourself. Time and time again people continue to prove this to me. I don’t think that its a bad thing, I just think that I need to stop laying so much trust in other people.

2. Even though I have knowledge and experience, this does not mean that I should share my fears of such knowledgeable things to others, even if it is to help another. I will never do this again. No matter how strongly I feel the urge in my heart, no matter how much the person desperately needs to hear it, I will not share it. My mouth will stay shut. People only hear what they want to hear.

3. It’s true, the old saying, “Burn me once, shame on you. Burn me twice, shame on me.” Though this has to do with another person involved in the falling out of my friend and I, it holds true. This person burned me as a child, and I swore to myself that I would never let her do it to me again. 15 years later, she did. Never again will it happen. Never.

And so, looking back, nearly a year later, I am thankful for the mess that occurred. I learned who my true friends are, learned a lot about people I thought were my friends, and learned some new things to keep myself in check in the future. Everything happens for a reason; people come and go into our lives for a purpose. I know why these people were in my life, and I am grateful for everything that have taught me.


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Taking a totally different direction, basically because this is what is on my mind right now, is marriage.

I am not married. I have been in a relationship with Mike since 2004; it will be 7 years in September. Now, I have always had an interesting stance on marriage, if that’s what you would like to call it. I call it “the many excuses of Sam” in an attempt to disguise how I really feel.

1. I just dont want to get married. This is completely untrue. If you hear me say this, laugh. I have found that it is easier to put how I feel in this umbrella phrase than explain.

2. Getting married is something that I can’t do; It will be like admitting that I have worth because I have found a man.  Though I do not believe that a woman’s worth is because of her man, certain someone close to me DOES view marriage and women in this way. This has to be one of the BIGGEST mitigating factors in my quest against marriage. But, shouldnt I then recognize that this person’s feelings are not my own? Yes. So, don’t let me use this excuse anymore.

3. I don’t want to get married because of all the “fuss”. I would have to say that this statement is almost true, except that I know that I can get married without a fuss.

Honestly, I think that the biggest reason that I am not married is, (deep breath), I do want a wedding. I want a big fancy dress. I want bridesmaids, flowers, pictures, Mike and Austin in matching tuxedos, and a honeymoon away from the world. True to my personality though, because I cannot have this, nor would I ever ask, I have dumbed down my perception of marriage to the point that I don’t want to do it at all. (Almost like my fear of failure, this would be fear of not living up to my dream….)

Mike says he wants to finally get married next year. I guess I am going to have to deal with this beast sooner or later…..

Back on the Wagon….after spring break ends.

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In the past month or so, I have been researching food. Lame, I know, but there are so many things that go into the food we eat that we don’t even consider.

For example, did you know that all of the USDA approved dyes used in food and other products have been banned in countries all over globe? Countries that have a higher mortality rate than the US have ALL dyes banned from their foods and products. Nearly all of the dominant food dyes have been linked to cancer. Additionally, when the human body takes in these dyes, they come back out through our waste, showing that our bodies have a difficult time digesting them, another sign that they are bad. (At this point I would cite my source, but my literature is at work… and I am at home. When I go back, I will edit and add my source!)

That’s just the research on food dye. I have also researched HFCS. Don’t even get me started on that one and the commercial that says, ” Whether it’s corn-sugar or cane-sugar, your body can’t tell the difference.” LIES. Apparently, the body CAN tell the difference. With typical cane sugar, your body has a burst of energy and crashes shortly afterward. With corn-sugar, your body has a burst of energy, crashes, and then craves food. HFCS creates a cycle of wanting more and more HFCS.

With that being said, I have decided that not only am I losing weight, but I am striving to go organic for my family. I have already started making the switch. All boxed foods and products have switched to organic. Now I just need to start shopping at the farmer’s market and cooking for the season, and in a healthy way. I want my family to feel good about themselves and what they eat! I am going to need help though. Recipes, anyone? (And preferably recipes that are FAST prep and cook time; less than an hour total)  I will be blogging about this new adventure as often as possible.

Lastly, and to go along with switching to organic, is that I would eventually like to get to the point where we eat fruits and vegetables so much, we can have our own garden. We’ve decided that this is not the year to do this, as the change alone is going to be difficult. If we can make it through the month of May, we can change our bad habits into new, healthy ones.