Going Fast Food Free!

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I did it once. I stopped drinking diet soda. I knew it was bad all along. I havent had a diet soda, or regular soda for that matter, since the beginning of October. That makes two months. I feel so much better than I did when I was drinking pop. I had headaches all the time; craved the soda which in turn lead to craving bad food! Now that I am completely over soda pop, I am now moving on to step two- going fast food free.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I am not cutting this out out of my life completely. That is almost impossible I think, having a significant other than can eat meals made for four people and not gain an ounce….  I am however, going to make fast food a “last resort” or “treat only” situation, probably the way that it is supposed to be.

The last time that I had fast food was Sunday Morning. I had McDonalds Breakfast (insert YUM here). However, I had it as a last resort. The time I had fast food before that was Tuesday before Thanksgiving.  So, here I am, going on 3 days. I know this might sound ridiculous, but when you’ve gotten into bad habits, they are so hard to break. I am taking it one step at a time. First pop. Second fast food. I am pretty sure what number three will be, but as of right now, I am going by what my body tells me to do.

I am confident that I will FINALLY be able to meet my goals as long as I continue to NOT force myself to do something that someone or something else tells me that I should do. I have always done things in my own time and on my own, and will have to do this in the same manner.

Wish me luck. French Fries are a hard one to get rid of!


Things I miss the most

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Surviving a relationship that consists of one person working one shift, while the other person works and entirely different shift is extremely difficult. People cannot assume they understand what it is like unless they have been in the situation; people can also not understand how terribly difficult it is. To see the person you love only two days a week, to hear their voice for 15 minutes a day total, and to watch your child search for their daddy is heart breaking. So, instead of thinking of all the things that suck about the situation I will remind myself and others of the things that you should be grateful for. You never know when they may be taken away from you. The things I miss the most:

1. Having someone to talk to at the end of the day. I miss being able to come home and unload all my burdens, thoughts, and feelings, upon my significant other(SO). Like I said, we get 15 minutes a day to talk most of the time, and much of that time is going over bills, mundane daily questions (did you let the dog out, where is the phone charger, etc), and the child. All very important things, but as the days go by, much of what I need to say and/or release goes unsaid and is stuffed down. It’s not about my SO, but him being the only person I have ever felt ok to open up to entirely, my ability to open up has gone back to a bare minimum.

2. Having something to do in the evening and looking forward to doing it. This could be as simple as watching TV together or going to the park with our son. Either way, I miss doing things on a regular basis as a family. I miss getting excited to go and do things and see how our son reacts. I miss our interactions as a family.

3. Hugs and Kisses. Two days worth just arent enough. I feel so empty inside at times. I just want to be held so badly. One kiss…. as we are running out the door is just not enough.

4. Feeling Safe at night. I can’t remember the last time I felt safe at night. I check the locks and doors probably 6 times each before I go to bed, and even then I still freak out.

5. Not being a single mother. Yes, I am in a relationship with someone I love dearly. But the truth is, I am a single mother. I do most everything for my child with very little assistance. I pay the bills. I clean the house. I go get the food. I cook the food. I parent my son and take care of our dog…. all by myself.

6. Going out with family and/or friends.  Because we only have two days together, it’s hard to justify the selfish need to spend time away from our son or away from each other. So we don’t. We pick and choose and try to stay together as much as possible; but we really miss being adults and having fun.

7. Being able to sleep with the windows open. Again, because I am afraid and alone, I don’t leave the windows open when there is an opportunity to do so. The whole fall season passed and I have not yet slept with a window open.

8. Having support and feeling loved. I know that my SO loves me. He wouldnt be doing what he is doing if he didnt. I just miss hearing, seeing, and feeling that love on a daily basis. My heart feels so empty through the week.

My life is not terrible at all. The situation that I am in is less than ideal. We definitely try to make the most of the time that we have, however, I miss so many things that a normal person takes for granted.

Living my life free of Diet Pop/Soda

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It’s been a while since I’ve written anything, so I guess I should start with the fact that I am indeed DIET (and regular) POP/SODA FREE! It was a long term goal of mine- to be completely rid of the pop by the end of 2011.

A study was released in mid-October about the long-term effects of diet pop and I decided the very next day to stop all together. I can’t find the link to the study…. I think that I might have it at work somewhere, but I can tell you this:

1. If you are considering stopping, just do it. Don’t wait.

2. Buy Hershey’s Special Dark Chocolate candy bars and keep them with you at all times. Depending on the severity of your diet pop and/or caffeine addiction, you will probably start with 1-2 bars. I started with 2 bars in a day to keep the pounding headaches at bay. After a couple days I was down to one bar, two days later down to miniatures. I am currently (two weeks later) free of needing anything.

3. If you were a pop drinker for the flavor, find something else. I suggest Vitamin Water XXX Zero. It’s sweet enough to take the place of a diet soda, but with no harmful effects, loaded with vitamins, and it tastes good.

4. If you were drinking pop because you don’t like the taste of water, I suggest SoBe Lifewater. It tastes good, and it’s water!

5. Stick to it and add your new habit into your lifestyle. This was hard the first week. When other people are getting pop, I was getting water. Water is better. Much better. I am making a conscious choice to do what is better. My choices have now become habit.

I consider myself very lucky to have this willpower to quit drinking pop. Now, if only I could find a way to get rid of fast food. Oy. That’s next up on the list.