Living my life free of Diet Pop/Soda

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It’s been a while since I’ve written anything, so I guess I should start with the fact that I am indeed DIET (and regular) POP/SODA FREE! It was a long term goal of mine- to be completely rid of the pop by the end of 2011.

A study was released in mid-October about the long-term effects of diet pop and I decided the very next day to stop all together. I can’t find the link to the study…. I think that I might have it at work somewhere, but I can tell you this:

1. If you are considering stopping, just do it. Don’t wait.

2. Buy Hershey’s Special Dark Chocolate candy bars and keep them with you at all times. Depending on the severity of your diet pop and/or caffeine addiction, you will probably start with 1-2 bars. I started with 2 bars in a day to keep the pounding headaches at bay. After a couple days I was down to one bar, two days later down to miniatures. I am currently (two weeks later) free of needing anything.

3. If you were a pop drinker for the flavor, find something else. I suggest Vitamin Water XXX Zero. It’s sweet enough to take the place of a diet soda, but with no harmful effects, loaded with vitamins, and it tastes good.

4. If you were drinking pop because you don’t like the taste of water, I suggest SoBe Lifewater. It tastes good, and it’s water!

5. Stick to it and add your new habit into your lifestyle. This was hard the first week. When other people are getting pop, I was getting water. Water is better. Much better. I am making a conscious choice to do what is better. My choices have now become habit.

I consider myself very lucky to have this willpower to quit drinking pop. Now, if only I could find a way to get rid of fast food. Oy. That’s next up on the list.


“It’s All in Your Head,” They Say.

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Ever heard the quote, ” It’s all in your head?” Or how about, “Mind over matter?” What about, “Attitude is everything?”

I have heard them all. I truly believe in most of their meanings and sentiments, however, I cannot understand for the life of me why I cannot follow them!

“It’s all in your head.”

Sometimes it is, really. There are times that I have a “heated” argument or am trying to make a statement, only to make myself look like an ass. There comes a time when I attribute certain thoughts to real life actions and words. The most recent example I have was from an argument with my significant other. He was trying to explain one thing to me, and when I started to bite his head off, he pointed out that the things I was angry about were not at all what he had said! (Say What?) I have no idea if this is something that happens to other people, but it’s annoying. It’s almost as if I am living out my private thoughts at times, and I certainly do not want to do that! They are my thoughts, mine! They need to stay there in my head! I know that recently I have learned that I often do this automatically, and have since tried to change my tune. I need things to stay in my head. I need to pay better attention to what people are really saying, not what my HEAD hears and/or sees them say/do.

“Mind over Matter.”

This quote is the basic premise that your mind is more powerful that the matter in which it is focused upon. In a sense, this is true. Unless of course you are me, and then your mind is a wild beast needing to be tamed. There have been times that I can take a small request and twist it to mean 75 different things. Though each one of these things are untrue, they still have an affect on how I view the request, whether or not I fulfill the request, and to what degree is it done. Oy. Life would be much easier if I didn’t think so damn much.

“Attitude is Everything.”

It really is. Something terrible could happen, but as long as I take it the right way, is it really that terrible? What about things that are relative to ones self? Love, for example, is relative and the attitudes that people have regarding love shape their relationships and life. At what point do I say, I am being as completely positive about a situation as I know how to be, but the situation calls for action, not positiveness? I definitely believe in the validity of this one, but it has plenty of flaws.

Which brings me to my final point of the night. We are all human. We all have flaws. Why does my biggest flaw have to be my brain?

I guess it could be worse right?


50 things I think about daily (kind of in order)

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1. What time is it?

2.Did my alarm go off? Did I hit snooze? Oh shit, I am late getting out of bed.

3. Did I forget to rinse my hair in the shower? Shit.

4. Towels in the dryer, damnit. Clothes that never get back in the closet and just sit on the dryer. Damnit.

5. Ugh, I am so fat.

6. I need new clothes. Too bad I don’t have money to get clothes….

7. If I had money, I would spend it on Austin and Mike anyway. I am fine with these pants. They will just fall apart before I get new ones. No worries!

8. Austin.

9.  If I eat bad just one more time….

10. Why can’t he just do the one and only one thing I ask him to do?

11. I just need a hug.

12.  Austin.

13. Did I check the oil in my car? Nope. Guess I will do it later.

14. I want a nap.

15. Did she just say what I think she said?

16.  I don’t care what you think.

17. Do you need a hug?

18. I just need to get out of here for a bit, and maybe get some fast food.

19. Yup, still fat as fuck.

20. Do you need help? I am always afraid to ask anymore.

21. I don’t trust you.

22. Please be kind. I don’t know how much more my brain can take.

23. Did I pay the (insert random bill here) bill? FUCK.

24. Where’s my keys?

25. I need a hug.

26. Austin.

27. Why do these creditors keep calling me? If I had the money, don’t they think I would have paid them by now?

28. Why can’t I just tell you how I feel? Ugh.

29. I am good.

30. Austin.

31. What should I make for dinner? I really need to eat better for Austin. He eats better than me and Mike combined.

32. Why can’t I find motivation anymore? What’s going on?

33. Let’s go play!

34. I love you.

35. You make me happier than any person or thing, ever. Nothing is as great as you.

36. I want to be a better person, for you…. but I am stuck in a rut right now.

37. The trash is still sitting there.

38. Did I feed Lucky? Shit.

39. Did we let Lucky out?

40. I am such a terrible (insert noun here).

41. I miss you so much.

42. I feel so alone.

43. I need something to do.

44.  Is that pee on the floor? Lucky? Austin????

45. I hate spiders. They are everywhere!

46. STOP!

47. Austin.

48. Mike.

49. Austin.

50. Mike.

If You’re Reading This…

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There is a song by Tim McGraw with this title. The song is about a soldier that dies in battle. My title has no such connection, however, it does have a point. If you are reading this blog, you might be lost!

I am nothing special. I live in a little house; my soon-to-be husband, 4 month old baby boy, and jack russell terrier are pretty normal too. I spend a lot of time with my family; the grandparents, parents, brothers and sisters, aunts and uncles, cousins, etc. I am very lucky and blessed to have the family that I have. There is no family I know that is like mine. They are so amazing and wonderful, my world would be empty without them. And I digress….

I work at a center for children with autism. I have been in the field for 8 years now and there is nothing that I would rather do. There may be days that I come home with open wounds, bruises that cover my appendages, and a concussion….but I know that no matter what these children do to me, what I am doing for them has a greater impact. I have worked in many different positions within the company I am at right now I am working in the admissions department. Its not exactly what I want to be doing, but since I had my son, I find that I have more energy at the end of the day when I am working with the parents and schools rather than the children. I think that I will be going back to school soon to finish my education (masters- only 2 classes left and then PhD!), so working in admissions will serve a purpose then as well.

I am in the process of losing weight right now. I have lost 17lbs in 2 weeks. I dont have a target weight; I go by how I want to look and feel. Its a more accurate way to lose weight I think.

I am excited to start my blogging adventure and hope that I can write often!

My baby boy and my dog. They are the same size..... for now.